I am slowly learning in my life, that although a million things may irritate you about someone, you cannot choose to attack each fault - and expect to win. Sometimes even more is lost than the battle itself. An entire friendship or relationship can be lost too. And looking back it is guaranteed that you will see it wasn't worth the loss, and you are responsible for making that molehill into a mountain.
I am a very expressive, open and emotional person (being a Gemini is part to blame!) and I struggle greatly with holding my tongue. In fact it drives me crazy not being able to blurt out what someone has done that has offended or upset me. Even just dropping a sarcastic comment can help me release the tension that builds inside of me when I am sad or angry.
But I am seeing that the older I get the more intolerable this characteristic of mine becomes for others and the more I need to slip into my 'big girl shoes' and do what I find close to unbearable... LET-IT-GO.
A bitter pill to swallow, but after I look back and see how small and insignificant the issue was, I feel proud and at the same time a small hint of silly, for noticing my almost dramatic reaction. Bit by bit it becomes clear to me that my friends, partners, family and even strangers deserve a lot more tolerance from me and my hot head. Because let's face it - everyone needs to be cut some slack every once in a while. And it wasn't that bad after all. No matter what soap opera theme tune was playing in my head at the time.
Choosing my battles is a daily battle in itself for me, but the more I drop the nit-picking, the easier it becomes.
And like my piano teacher always said, "practice makes perfect".
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