What I Know For Sure

Life can be overwhelming at times. Especially when there are deadlines, appointments, things to remember, things to do, long standing problems, and on top of all that, still the day to day smaller challenges. Being a procrastinator by profession, this makes my stress levels relatively low, up until the very last week, when it is absolutely necessary to panic. But by then, the freaking out is at it's maximum. Inside my stomach is doing constant somersaults (at a pace that would put any professional diver to shame) and my mind simply cannot stop thinking. I lie awake at night during that week, and I visualise every possible thing I need to do, write, say, remember, and even when I have thought of every possible thought that can mentally be conceived inside my brain... It starts all over again. This time, from a different perspective.

A few nights ago, I thought to myself "there is really no point in going over these things one thousand times in my head, because I will never be able to execute these plans if I don't get some rest!" And so I started to think of all the things I know for sure, and what I am grateful for, and what I can appreciate. I thought of my beautiful dog of course, who is always there for me no matter what I've ever done wrong. I thought of my warm bed covered with my fluffy brown luxurious blanket that I adore and that makes me feel like a princess just for being me. I thought of the knowledge in my head that no one can ever take away from me. And I felt so much more confident knowing that I could wake up the next day with these facts that keep me safe, and make me feel grounded and invincible.

What I know for sure, is that however tough your day gets, there is always hope. There are always those little things that can pull you through. There is always space to have faith in your heart that you will persevere and achieve in the end.

So I'm going to go procrastinate a bit longer,
then go fill my heart will faith!